Just as soon as I mentioned that at least I wasn’t getting worse last week, I got worse. I’ve lost more use of my left arm and hand. And WHAT LUCK! I’m left handed. I had a couple of days that I couldn’t use my left hand to lift an eating utensil to my mouth.
Now, you might suggest that I simply switch hands. But when an attempt was made, I simply got more food up my nose than in my mouth.
Making the morning breakfast with cereal more festive than usual.
And frankly, I don’t understand this phenomenon. Since I’m a fantastic bowler, using my right hand. I also throw with my right hand. Although, for the sake of full disclosure, my children seldom ask me to play toss with them. Since I’m a rather lousy aim. Even in the best of health. When tossing a water bottle to the children in the cheap seats at the back of the van, I’ve on more than one occasion beaned an offspring in the head. They don’t ask for water bottles very often…
I’m grateful that I can still write, and more importantly, TYPE. Because I’m able to rest my wrists on the keyboard pull-out thingy (fancy computer term), my ability to work on my computer has not been affected at all.
I simply attribute that to God’s grace.
The other morning, I laid myself back down on my bed, allowing tears to flow freely into my ears. Unbeknownst to me, Fiddledaddy was at the same time praying that I find comfort, because he was unable to communicate the right words to stop the tears.
A few moments later the phone rang. I didn’t want to answer it, but my daughter brought the phone to me and pressed the green button. Signaling that I must talk. Or appear stupid to the person calling. On the other end of the phone was my best friend, Kathy. We hadn’t spoken in a good while, and she said that I had been on her heart all morning.
Tell me that God does not work in mysterious ways.
Before long, my tears were dried, and I found myself giggling in such a way that only Kathy can encourage. We have a nearly 30 year history together, and whenever we talk, the topic will generally disintegrate into tales reliving the insanity of our early 20’s. That always cheers me up. Mostly because I’m grateful to have escaped that time of my life generally unscathed. Kathy and I live on completely separate coasts now, and have for the last 12 years, but no matter how much time goes by, I can hear her voice on the other end of the phone, and it’s as if I saw her just yesterday.
She’s a blessing to me. And an answer to my sweet husband’s prayer on that tear stained morning.
As we chatted, I told her about some of the silver linings to my disease. First, there’s the handicapped parking decal, that nets me an awesome parking space at Disney World. And the fun amusement ride that involves me riding in a wheelchair, while my children attempt to mow down park patrons and various shrubbery.
And of course there’s the weight loss. Which now has totaled 18 pounds. Woot. And as we spoke, it occurred to me that at some point last year, I had asked God to help me in my plight to lose weight. What with my lack of will power and all.
Well. That caused a new rash of laughter. Because you know how when you ask God for something like, well, patience? He seldom will make your life easier, but rather give you circumstances to stretch you, forcing you to find the fortitude to ACQUIRE PATIENCE.
I stopped asking God for patience a good while back.
Now I’m not saying that God has allowed me to have this disease so that I could drop a dress size. Or three. Because I’m certain He has far more important lessons in store for me during this trial. It just struck me as funny.
God does answer prayer. It’s just that sometimes the answer is NO. Or something very unexpected, that is a far greater blessing than we could have ever imagined.
But still. I don’t think I’m going to be asking for assistance in the weight loss department any time soon.
My fervent prayer this week, is simply that my doctor’s office receive all of the results for my tests prior to my Wednesday appointment. (And I’m leaving the whole patience thing out of it.) 🙂
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving week, everyone! Posting may be light this week for me, because OH MY WORD, IT’S THANKSGIVING WEEK!